Moral ambiguity

It seems that I have been deluding my self in believing that I am all ok... According to 2 different Doctors I am depressed... AGAIN!
This makes sense now that I try and look at the situation objectively. I am currently constantly at risk of breaking down into tears, if the wrong subject is broached. Its not as if I want to. But it just is. There fore, the depression diagnosis. But its ok, Im sure that with all the support I have around me at the moment that I can get through this rough patch. It just seems at the moment that a lot of little things can get on my nerves.

Sometimes I nothing more than too shout out to the world "HERE I AM!! Notice me! Acknowledge me! please..." Its not as if I am someone outstanding, but doesn't everyone want to be seen every now and then.
I mean, I have quirks, and idiosyncrasies. Like the fact that I only paint the nails on left hand, because when I do my right... it looks like shit. But really Im average.
I hate being average. I would much rather be at an extreme then be average. Well maybe not an extreme but perhaps just a little more than what I can currently claim to be.
And again this comes back to the whole... NOTICE ME thing. I guess this is part of my reason for doing this blog. Also because I have been told on many occaisions by many professionals that writing can help depression. I think that this form, achieves not only my need to write and get all the crap out of my system, but may also feed my need to be noticed and acknowledged.... just maybe....
But I have decided that feedback might be nice.

So if you will.... Email me your thoughts my dedicated (or not so) readers. The address is      superstar_444@hotmail.com

For now I will go back to watching "United States of Tara" and trawling Facebook...

love and light

Kait