Adjust

It takes time to adjust to any new situation. For myself, these last 3 months have been transitional and hard to fathom at times. But proceed in life I must, as must we all. At time I wonder if I have lost my way
It is then I realize that it is not that I have lost myself, more that I have opened up a different, untouched compartment that I wasn't quite sure was there before I began this journey.
Finding it was as if I was being told,  "here, here is your chance to grow, take it in any direction you want," So I took it, and ran with it!
Some have accused me of running away from my problems, which is partly true, but I also believe that without this change, this upheaval, I would not have grown, that I would have become stagnant.
I was at a point in my life where I had gain all I could, where I was. The next logical step was to move on, to find another avenue to grow as a person. I believe that as people, we are constantly growing. In body, mind and in spirit. For me, it was time to spread my wings.
So now, in reflection, I have lost, but I have gain double that which I have left behind.

Going Bush??

So... I went for a job interview today. It went really well, but here's the thing, it means that I have to go bush for it. Literally I will have to travel to the Australian Outback to work with kids on stations. I know right! Great opportunity! And a great experience. My gut is telling me to go for it! But my head is another matter. I mean, I just got here, living with my partner finally! I love it here! I'm happier than i have ever been before. This is going to be a confusing time, until I find out if they want me for the job or not. 

Then I will have to decide. 

The boy says he is OK with it, but I'm not sure. Or am I. I really want this. Every part of me is excited about the adventure this job would be bring. The only draw back are the travel and the time away from the boy. Its only 2 weeks away at a time, but then I don't know how long between one place and the next. I guess these are questions I need to ask.
But I really do hope I have to opportunity to try this...

Life on the couch

As the title shows, I have been living most of my life on the couch these last two weeks. Its not just because I'm lazy (which I am, and will admit to without hesitation) I have actually just had my gall bladder out. I was in hospital for a week, fasting... Now I am a lady who loves her food. I was starving! It was a long 6 days let me tell you! But after trying to eat and reduced to the fetal position because of the intense pain, the doctor decided it would just be better to remove it. 

But after being let out a week ago, and spending the end of last with my parents down, I actually am starting to feel human again. Thus the decision to get on with life, and sit on the couch and write a blog! But I did go to the pool tonight with my partners mum lets call her J. I feel better actually, getting moving has given me more energy. So what did I do? Sat on the couch of course! No I'm not that bad, I did end up back on the couch, but it turns out, all that movement and stretching stirred something up. I was sore before hand but afterwards... ouch is all i can say.

I should probably explain that over the Christmas holidays I moved in with my partner. So I now live a state away from all my family, friends and well just about everyone I know! But I seriously would not change a thing. I am the happiest (apart from being so sick) I have been in a hell of a long time. I know it will take time, but I will make friends. And as for family, I saw my parents last week, which was amazing, but I do miss my niece. It has been strange. I went from spending everyday of her life with her. to hours away. I do miss my brothers and sisters-in-law. But we still speak often. Especially this last week. I have also been writing letters to my Nana. Its brilliant to receive and send letters in the mail.  

But, my week on the couch has not been unproductive. I have recently discovered the wonders of Doctor Who. It is possibly the most amazing television production to come out of England. Well the most amazing one I have seen so far. Now I haven't seen the originals but the new series are fantastic. I am still not used to Matt Smith as the Doctor but I loove Amy. I think that she is brilliant. I have seen up to the end of 5th season, and J has the 7th season recorded, but at the moment.... no 6th season. :( 

Couch time has also shown me how much I am nerdy gamer girl. Is it sad that right now I am extremely excited that I am waiting for my new Nintendo DSI? Its bright pink! I LOVE IT! Well I will. I know I will. I have been loving playing Pokemon. Im on Diamond at the moment, but it has shown me why I never really like Pokemon... I do love Mario, and Donkey Kong though. I have been on the Wii as well. Playing a hell of a lot of Guitar Hero. 

All this gaming is bad sometimes. I get so caught up in the game that I lose track of time and end up spending hours playing!. That is why I have decided I need to take up a sport. I used to play basketball so I think I will find a new team here. I'm looking forward to it to be honest. I cant wait to extend my body again. I am getting bored with this couch.

So no more life on the couch!!