Poem 1 of 3
Meds vs Monsters
Living in a Valium haze
Because God, oh God
These are the days
When I don't know
If what I feel
Is a false reality
Or really real
The blinding numbness
Down to my core
Lost in the shapes
Distorting my floor
Staring so long
That monsters emerge
In the corners of my mind
They begin to converge
In silent moments
They overtake
Causing me
to loose my faith
All i believe
And know is best
Has been contorted
To the worst kind of test
Medicated trances
Giving me a break
Allowing me respite
From all this ache
But as always
They come with a price
Loosing your self
In the substance vice
Can be just as bad
And almost as fraught
As the trap that becomes
Those monstrous thoughts
Poem 2 of 3
Dancing with death
While fighting against fate
Loosing what sense
I once used to make
Tears now flow free
Down cheeks, over lips
Salty and bitter
The grip has now slipped
Shattering pieces
Of a puzzle piece soul
An impossible equation
Never to be solved
I've lost to my self
The battle long fought
But I can't seem to remember
Which guidance I sought.
Did I want to win,
Or keep playing the game?
Was it peace that I wanted,
An end all the same?
Should I hold my head high?
Should I shout it out loud?
Do I need to explain
Do I need to be proud
Maybe there isn't
One single answer
Maybe it's only
The approach that matters?
Poem 3 of 3
She and I
She pointed at me,
As if I were the one
Who could explain all the pain,
That had somehow begun
It ravaged her face
And was plain to see
How cruel this world
Had turned out to be
Out of her favour
And into my hands
Searching for reasons
To abandon these plans
Imploring and hoping
And begging for change
Knowing all along
What was happening was strange
Reflecting in shapes
And shadows alike
Staring her down
Awaiting the strike
Lifting my hand
To make the first move
She does the same thing
As if only to prove
That she and I
Are one and the same
Only she is my mirror
And this is my stage
Im acting this out
For all too see
Hoping I fool them
That they don’t see me
Desperately seeking
The moment when
Everything would seem
Normal again
