It is not often that I take the time to sit down and actually write what ever it is my mind throws at me. To tell the absolute truth, I rarely get the time these days. Between work, and school. I feel like I have no real life. Any time that I am not working, studying or sleeping, I am either travelling or reading. Sometimes I think reading is all that keeps me sane. I mean the best part about reading is that you leave the real world for just a little while and dive into a non-reality that, even though it is just words on a page, can most of the time make way more sense than anything in real life does. I sometimes get to the point where I just have to say to myself. Stop reading. You are getting lost in the book!! It just seems so much easier to bury my head in a book than it is face real life.

The same thing happens with some of the music I listen to. It just takes me to a whole other place. A place that seems more peaceful than anything that i could ever find in reality.

And dreams. sometimes it feels like all I wait for each day is to go to sleep so that I can dream of other things. Day dreaming is also something I take pleasure in. I am a huge Missy Higgins fan, and her music just... ahh, she can take me to somewhere. She is very good lyrically. As well as melodically. It just all fits together so well. I have been to two of her concerts now and I cant wait for what ever she has install for us next. 

If I had the money, I would jump on an aeroplane right now and fly to the UK. Jode's, I miss you something crazy. For everyone else, Jodie is one of the best friends anyone could ever ask for. She is amazing and beautiful and can lighten up even the darkest of my days.

Well... It is time I got some sleep. Off to the land of dreams for this little munchkin. 

love and light!

Kait

I opened my eyes this morning to the warm light flooding through my pink curtains. But despite the warmth radiating not only from my window but my cat, whom had curled up on top of my feet, I was shivering. At this point I began to become confused. I was covered in my doona, it was 12.00pm, yet there I was, teeth chattering like those wind up toys. 

Sitting up in my single bed I realised that not only was I shivery, but dizzy to boot. My thoughts revolved around the fact that I had a night class in 5 hours, and people to call. I knew I had to get moving if I wanted to get everything done before I have to leave for class. 

Logging on to my computer, I noticed that my sleeping hours had not gone by uneventfully. There were emails, more than i had expected, that needed seeing to. A booking, just crying to be made. And homework... Ah that dreaded homework that I had been putting off doing. 

By 1.30, my booking was taken care of, 2 of the 4 phone calls had been made. Most emails answered, and my facebook checked, (the one place where not much had changed) This was when my mother arrived home for lunch. With her home, I decided that it was probably time to make the move out of the comfort of my bed and see if any house work needed doing. 

Lucky for me, nothing needed to be done. I am not sure whether was true or if it was just because I pretty much looked like death warmed up. It doesn't really matter. With a few minuets idle time I decided they might be well spent learning a new song on guitar. After 20 minuets, I realised that it just wasn't working for me today. I came to this conclusion when my fingers went numb and was asked if the cat was in my room dying by 2 different people. 

So shower time it was. And boy did I then realise how god damned achy I was. I felt like every single muscle in my body was crying from exhaustion. By the time I left the bathroom it was 4.30pm and almost time to leave for class. 

I went outside to wait for mum,( who was driving me to TAFE) and noticing that there was washing of mine on the line, I brought it in before the damp got to it. Mum pulled in the drive as I finished. Saying "I would have got that" she does way to much for me already.

Soon after mum and i headed off. I always enjoy mum and my little car trips. She is great to chat to. And today was no different. Once at class it didnt take me long to settle into the old routine, ( i havent been to class in about 5 weeks) on tea break, i realised how much i truly enjoy what i study.

Once home, I headed straight back to bed. Noticing that once again things needed seeing too. My computer was practically screaming at me. So I delt with the important things first. Then facebook showed that Jodie ( most amazing lady) was on-line. I couldn't not talk to her. So my facebook chat denied me. So I over rode it and called her instead. I'm glad I did.

But I had to say good bye when my temperature got too out of hand, and back into the shower i went. Muscles crying again I put on some pre-heated pj's ( I love the dryer) and climbed back into bed.  Only now realising that the homework i had planned, still lies open on my desk. Untouched 

And now here I am. Writing to a semi non existent audience. but hey if it pleases the growing need to write...

So my parting words for now...

There is nothing that I despise more than waking up feeling worse than you did when you went to sleep. As I lay my sore, tired, and somewhat broken body to sleep tonight, I hope and pray that tomorrow will be a bit better than today...

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I bought a new Diary today. Like a journal, not a book with dates and times in it for appointments. My other one is full. So I spent half an hour trying to find a good new one. I did find one. I have already written in it. We have bonded. I chose it because it was the only one of it's kind on the shelf. I like that. Being different from all the other journals. It's individuality astounds me. When in all possibility it was one of millions made exactly the same. But to me, It is as individual as a zebra's stripe. The other reason I like it was because it was gold. I don't usually like gold, but I love it on this journal! I also bought a pen to go with my new journal today. It is silver and pink and has dangly bits. Here is a photo of both:

I think they are beautiful!

I wrote two letters today. One of Jodie, and one to the him. I refuse to put his name on. 

As for Jodie, she is an amazing, one of a kind, beautiful girl, who happens to live on the other side of the planet. But that isn't stopping us. She is in my life everyday. And I hope that I am in hers. She makes me smile when no one else can! 

Any who, I wrote her. But I will have to send both off in the mail tomorrow! It will be great. And we will have to wait and see what kind of response (if any) we will get from the him.

I've been trying to teach my self guitar, I am getting there, I think. I can put two chords togeather now. But there are some chords I still cant play. I hope to be able to play well one day! Then I will be able to say that I can play, 4 instruments!! YAY ME!

Well it is late and I better try and get some sleep!

Keep safe!

love and light

Kait

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Afternoon all.
I am lying in bed about to drift off to sleep when I remembered the promise I made my self last night. So here I am fulfilling the promise and writing every day. I had a good day so far today. I went shopping with nana and mum. Nana is so funny to shop with! She is 76 and can't see very well. And today was especially bad as she had just had eye injections into her good eye! The poor darling was clinging to my arm for dear life! Then we go into a clothing shop and she decided that she likes a top I tried on and goes "That look lovely on you!! Do you want it? I'll buy it for you! It can be your bithday present!" The funniest bit is, my birthday isn't until October!! But she was so determined that I couldn't tell her no, then we went to the checkout where she had my mum swipe her card, then preceded to tell her, her pin number in front of everyone who was waiting in line, and the cashier! But you can't blame her! She couldn't see a thing!
I've decided that I am going to dye my hair chocolate brown, I am sick of blonde! Nans response to this... "You bloody idiot! What do you want to go and do that for?! You have lovely blonde hair!" She makes me laugh!!  She was even more hilarious the day I dyed it deep purple!!
Well people, I am knackered! Glandular fever will do that to you! I have been having stomach pains as well, but the doctor tells me that it is all just part of it! I WILL SURVIVE! I hope! here is pic of me  all snuggled up in my doona!!

Love and Light!


Kaiti 

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It makes me laugh that every time I go to start writing a new blog, I suddenly get writers block! I have all of this "interesting" stuff to write about but as soon as I hit this keyboard, and hey presto!! nothing. So here I am, waiting for something to happen. I guess I could continue like this, but I am at a loss.
I guess I better introduce my self properly. My name is Kait. I live in Australia. I hate this stuff, it seems so, well to be frank, boring! Thus another reason that I hate starting a new blog. I, I, I! I cant believe that I use that letter so much. As you can tell, I am doing about 3 different things at one time.
My neice is trying to squirt her juice all over my laptop... it is only worth mentioning because it is in one of those non spill sippy cups, yet it still manages to get sticky on my screen!! Amazing what a 14 month old is capable of doing isn't it! But my god! I swear that kid is a genius!! As I said, she is 14 months, but she is already able to string 2 or more words together! like "what you doing?" or "Dis, Ta, PWEEEAASE!!!" she is so gorgeous. She is my light. I don't believe specifically in god, but she was defiantly sent to our family.
Well my writers block is getting on top of me, but I will be back. quite possibly very soon! Enjoy life, don't let it pass you by, you only get one chance at this one.

Love and light to you all!
Kait